A Note to Honey

It was my first month in a new school.
I still feel like an alien in a new planet.
I walk around school during class hour.
Just to wonder around and look at the new place.
That was the time I saw you for the first time.

It was the beginning of a new class period and you were outside your class.
Just hanging out and laughing around with your friends.
Since that day, I keep on seeing you around.

Years later, on Friendship/Valentines day ( I can't remember).
I was called by a senior prefect.
She was your Kakak Angkat.
She asked me to deliver a lolipop to you.
That was how I got to know your name.
That was the first time we ever speak to each other.

We started to see each other often when I started to be the school prefect.
We started to become close.
You call me once a while.
We started to hangout together after school.
and than one day you pop out the question.

Photographed by Wan Nikman

After 8 years of being your girlfriend, you asked me to marry you and spend a life time together as husband and wife.
I had been dreaming for this day to come, and now I am all yours honey!

Photographed by Wan Nikman

I know that I wasn't the best girlfriend that you ever had but I will be the best wife you'll ever had!

I love you Honey.

From Your Wife,

25 years and counting

Happy Birthday to me!
I'm officially 25 years old.
Quarter of a decade.

Today, I'll be writing about me.
I was born 25 years ago in Sentul, Kuala Lumpur.
I was born and raised in Kuala Lumpur.
I am the first child to my ayah and mama.
I am the first grandchild to my tokwea and tok ayoh.
I am now officially a wife to a wonderful husband name Ahmad Shah Razin B. Shahril.

Sounds wonderful right? But actually no.
I learn about life the hardest way.
I was not the smartest in the family.
I was the one to get last place in class.
I was able to read and write at the age of 9 (lambat kn? I think I have dyslexia).
But in time, things turn out right when I score 1A 3Bs and 1C for my UPSR.
that was my biggest accomplishment because there is no Ds or Fs in my results (which I get all the time during my primary years).

I was the one who scored the worst SPM result in 2004, 3Bs 4Cs 1D and 1E.
and I was the first in the family to entered IPTS (why? with the result like mine, who bothered to accept me into their institutions, not worth it! hehehe).
and I did very well and earned myself a spot in UiTM for Bachelor of Business Administration (Finance), one of the toughest program available in UiTM (tell me about it!).
and now, I will be the first to earn my Master of Business Administration at the age of 25.
Not so bad for a dyslexic girl right?!
and I am thankful to Allah that He created me this way.
I really do learn a lot and I am proud of what I have become now.

In a Few Days

In a few days, I'll be ending my life as a single women. I can't believe I'll be writing this now. I still remember the first time I entered school. Everything was very alien like. The school was big and the pupils were much bigger than I am. Then, suddenly, I entered secondary school, where I had to face my teenagers life the hardest way. With just a blink of an eye, I entered college where freedom wasn't really what I wanted. Next, I furthered my studies to bachelor level and now I am few meters away from completing my Masters.

Life had just started for me, and now, I'll be entering a new chapter. Soon I'll become someone's wife ^_^

It is quite intimidating, exciting, nervous, scared and all sorts of feelings that existed in this universe. But, I am happy, much happier than I was back than. This wasn't a though decision to make. I know that Allah have planned great things for me. Insya Allah, everything will be fine.