Ramadhan 1432 Hijrah

This is the month that I've been waiting for.

The month of full blessing from Allah.

I love ramadhan.

It always give me this wonderful feeling.

As happy as I could be, sadness will always be present.

This will be our second year celebrating Ramadhan and Syawal without atuk.

I miss him. Every time he slip into my mind, tears will fall like rain.

I'm sorry atuk, I can't help myself.

Each time I think of him, I'll recite Al-Fatihah.

Insya Allah by doing so, he will be at peace.

This will be my last Ramadhan as a single women.

Yea, getting married this year.

I pray to Allah that everything will go as plan.

Insya Allah.

I would like to take this opportunity to say sorry for all my wrong doings.

I pray that this Ramadhan will bring us all Rahmat and Baraqah from Allah.

Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa kepada semua.

Regards,

Weekends + Monday

Weekends: 

Went for 2 days pre-wedding courses organized by JAIS.

Monday:

Shopping for hantaran.

Weekends + Monday = Tired

Tired: 

Energy level is now at 0 level.

Ok, that's all.

Thank you for reading.

Regards,

A Year After.

I still remember that day, I was busy with MBA's Induction Program, while he was admitted in the hospital.
I didn't saw it coming.
I thought it was like the first time he was admitted.
He was brought home few days after.
He was still alive.
But this time...

It was Sunday night ( yes I still remember what day it was).
I was at home, resting after two tiring day in Kuala Kubu.
Mama called 'looks like he will not survive another night'.
But I said to myself he will, because he is a strong man.

I completed my assignment at dawn that Monday (19th July 2010).
I emailed it to the group-mates (luckly they understand).
Mama called again that morning 'can you pack me some clothes for three night stay?'
My heart was beating like a drum.

'Wait for me Atuk' that was all I said all the way to Melaka.
I recite Al-fatihah and Surah Yassin the whole way to Melaka.
I stopped for a quick nap because I was so sleepy.
If only I didn't stop for that quick nap.
I could at least teach him to say the syahadah.

I arrived at kampung, and there he was lying in the middle of the room.
I started crying as soon as I saw mama and nenek sitting next to him.
I can't help myself.
I've learned that if we cry for the deceased, it will only makes him/her suffer more.
But I can't help it.

I recite the Al-Quran, but I was struggling all the way.
Than I remembered that my sisters haven't heard the news yet.
I called my 3rd sister, she cried immediately after I told her the news.
She was in Sarawak at that time.
I called my 2nd sister, telling her that I was rushing to get her from the campus.
She was half an hour away from atuk's house.

When we arrived an hour latter, atuk is ready to be taken to the Kubur.
He was looking dashingly handsome, like he haven't aged at all.
The best part, he was smiling.
We kiss him goodbye and we all prayed for him.

That was a year a go.

Today, exactly at this our, we completed burial ceremony.

I miss him. We all do.
-Al-fatihah-

My Part Time Jobs!

I love the government so much! (erk! really?)

Because they gave my fellow MBA's and I a semester worth of semester break! T_T

Happy aren't we friends? Haha...

Yes, I am having a semester break melt down people!

But not for too long because I am making myself busy with part time jobs..Yes JOBS!

During the day I work as an Administrator at my brother's school,  Integrated Islamic School Shah Alam.

I do administration work and being the assistant to all the teachers.

Oh yes. They included a new task for me, The School Blogger! 

Yes people! Blogging is now an occupation! ^_^

On the evening, I give tuition classes to standard 1, 2 & 3 students.

I used to have 3 students but now I have 6 students...

Crazy I tell you! but they are all cute! 

(the other three is not in the picture tho)

and during the weekends, I am a wedding planner with my fiancée ^_^

My Weekends

Last weekend, we get away from our busy life.

We spend a day together, watched movies and survey things for our hantaran.

He had lose some of that weight..proud of him ^_^

Me? O I still have a long way to go. A lot more weight to lose.

But we still eat our heart out!

It was fun ^_^

Want to get Marry?

Are you thinking of getting married? Are you well prepared to share everything with your other half? Are you ready to hold the responsibilities of being a husband or a wife and a child at the same time? Do you have enough money to support more than one person? If your answer is no, you better think again. 

It is not about the engagement ceremony or the kenduri itself. It is about responsibility, trust and compromising with not only your other half but their family as well. You need to remember that you are not only married to your other half but his or her family as well. The kenduri is about letting others know that you are lawfully married, so that when others bump into you else where they wont be shock. 

The most important key words to remember is to plan according to your budget. Getting marry is no longer as simple as what it used to be back than: kompang, simple decorated pelamin (some have none), only 5 to 7 of hantaran and giving only boiled egg rapped with napkin paper to respective guest. But now, getting marry is like planning for a dinner event; with beautiful decoration all over the house, a beautiful and grand pelamin, 10 to 13 of hantaran and some event book a convention hall for their wedding.

I wonder, who started it all? Do want to know why? People are now actually competing with each other in preparing the most grand wedding of their life. But what they really need to realize is, that is not what it is about. It should be about moderation and going according to what you are AFFORD to spend.

You probably wondering why am I posting such entry. Well I'll be getting marry in just 3 more months and I am having the most difficult time in my life. Lots to be done but I don't know where am I at now. Here is what  I already have:

1. Bahan-bahan to decorate my hantaran.
2. Kain to make baju nikah.
3. Dulang hantaran.
4. Alas dulang.
5. Mak andam.

Check list? Doesn't help! or is it just me that does not know how to use a check list! Agrh!!

P/S: lots to do....scared!