36 Weeks

36 weeks and 4 weeks to go before I deliver a human being into the world. According to my doctor, I had gain only 8kg and the baby is weight 2.24kg. Yes, I know I gain so little weight and my baby is pretty small. I am a bit worry about that and hopefully everything will be ok. I've started to feel like having period cramps but not that often. Sometime I have like 2 or 3 times a day sometimes I don't have it at all. Alhamdulillah,even the baby is pretty small, but the baby is in a healthy growth progress.

Eid is just two weeks away and I am felling nervous every day. What to expect, this is my first child. I am scared, because this is the most important event of my life, having a baby. It is not easy. So many things happen at one time. But I know that Allah have great plans for my family and I. Insya Allah, everything will be fine.

p/s: congratulations on your first semester results hubby! You have done wonderfully. I am so proud of you!

Ramadhan 1433

Few more hours before Ramadhan appears.
This will be my First Ramadhan as a wife and a pregnant lady.
Can't believe that I'm actually addressing myself as a lady.
I may look like a lady but there is still a child in me.

Well, this Ramadhan will be different.
I pray that this Ramadhan will bring barakah to my family and I.
I pray that this Ramadhan will make me stronger as I am carrying a child.
I pray that Allah will give me strength to fast the whole month.

To all my fellow friends, Salam Ramadhan 1433, may this Ramadhan bring all of you barakah.
May we all get the benefit from this Ramadhan, Insya Allah.

Feelings

I am an observer and my favorite subject will be human because human is the most beautiful creation that Allah has created in this world. I do believe that people have different ways in showing off their emotions, and that every person in this world are able to show it, be it in sick, health, poor or rich. The reason why I chose to write about it is because of my Mok Long. She has been sick since I was 2 months pregnant and now that I am almost 8 month pregnant, she is progressing well. She goes to her therapy session and according to my sister, she can now moves around. Alhamdulillah. However, she still have some memory problems that may take years to recover or according to my reading will remain as it is now.

Unfortunately, my hectic and unorganized schedule unable me to visit her that often and I do regret it every second. Just the other day, my aunt who is now taking care of her post a picture. It is something that she wrote that goes like this:

"Pagi- awal bangun untuk sembahyang Subuh, mandi, sembahyang Subuh. Selepas itu cuba utuk tidak mahu rasa resah gelisah, yang ditambah pula dengan bunyi berbagai ketukan orang membetulkan, karenah anak jiran menjerit dan sebagainya. Tengah hari cuba-cuba tidur tapi tidak mahu. Begitulah hari-hari berlalu dengan sakit yang semakin bertambah, risau tak dapat pergi bertugas. Dijaga oleh anak dan adik tak ada menimbangkan kasihan......"

She used to be a teacher. She teaches Bahasa Malaysia and Sejarah. You could still tell from the words that she used. The emotions and feelings that she has inside makes me cry every time I read those words she wrote. What makes me even more angry and sad with myself is that I was unable to visit her and took turns with my aunt to take care for her. If I wasn't pregnant, I'll be there by her side, help her as much as I can, through the recovery process. But unfortunately, with my condition, there is nothing much that I can do, accept pray to Allah that she will get better soon.

Eid Mubarak to All

Hmmmmmm...

Bulan puasa kali ini betul-betul mencabar aku.

Mula-mula handphone rosak, lepas tu laptop plak rosak.

Sekarang, bumper kereta plak tercabut.

Ayah aku tak tahu lg yang bumper kete aku tercabut.

Tunggu la die balik nanti, hmmmm...

Tak baik mengeluh macam ni. Nampak macam orang yang tak bersyukur.

Bukan tak bersyukur, cuma rasa rendah diri sangat bila dibandingkan dengan orang lain.

Confident dalam diri ni dah sangat rendah. Dah tak macam dulu.

Dah tu, pegi la beli yang baru je! Ape susah!

Memang tak susah, tapi rasanye semua tu masih boleh dipakai lagi.

Kalau beli yang baru, nanti tak terpakai plak, dah membazir jadinye.

Lagipun, duit tu sume banyak nak gune untuk bende lain yang lagi penting.

Kalau macam tu, tak payah la bising-bising macam ni!!

Aku cume perlukan tempat untuk luahkan ape yang aku rase.

Tunang ko kan ade, pegi la luahkan kat dia!

Bende-bende kecik macam ni, malu la nak cerita pada die.

Biar la aku sendiri yang tahu.

Regards,

Ramadhan 1432 Hijrah

This is the month that I've been waiting for.

The month of full blessing from Allah.

I love ramadhan.

It always give me this wonderful feeling.

As happy as I could be, sadness will always be present.

This will be our second year celebrating Ramadhan and Syawal without atuk.

I miss him. Every time he slip into my mind, tears will fall like rain.

I'm sorry atuk, I can't help myself.

Each time I think of him, I'll recite Al-Fatihah.

Insya Allah by doing so, he will be at peace.

This will be my last Ramadhan as a single women.

Yea, getting married this year.

I pray to Allah that everything will go as plan.

Insya Allah.

I would like to take this opportunity to say sorry for all my wrong doings.

I pray that this Ramadhan will bring us all Rahmat and Baraqah from Allah.

Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa kepada semua.

Regards,

Tak Percaya!

Saya dengan berbesar hatinya ingin mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih kepada anda-anda sekalian yang sudi membaca blog ini. Walaupun blog ini bukan blog tidak dipenuhi dengan informasi-informasi yang padat atau seni-seni yang halus dan tinggi nilainya, namun anda masih sudi membacanya.

Terima Kasih wahai 50 followers sekalian. Walaupun jumlahnya sedikit, namun ianya adalah amat berharga buat saya. Teruskan sokongan anda terhadap saya.

Sekian,

Counting the Days

I'm a little bit tense during this time of year.
Assignments, research and final exams keeps bugging me on.
I know I shouldn't be mumbling about this..
But sometimes saying it out loud makes me feel better.

But I hope by end of this month I'll be feeling much better.
I am counting days actually.
I'll be getting engage in 3 weeks! ^_^

Preparation...emmm...
To be honest, all I have done is confirming with the catering and tents people..
I've yet to start with the hantaran and everything else..
I'm worried, because I didn't seems to have enough time to do so..
But hopefully by end of this month I could focus on the preparation..
and I pray to Allah that everything will be going as planned..

"Malaysia Hari Ini"

I wake up early today before the sun rise up in the sky. I turn on the TV and MHI is on air. Coincidently, the topic of discussion is somehow related to me and all of Malaysian Bloggers. From the show, I learn that Malaysia have the highest number of blogger compare to its neighbour country. Well, that does not surprise me at all, just look at our blogger comunity Nuffnang, there are so many blogger in Malaysia alone that serve nuffnang! (and I am one of them..hahaha)..

Ok, back to the main topic. So, they were discussing on the writtung pattern from back then until now. The conclusion is, we youngster is looking towards something that is fast and on the spot. We write out of pleasure, we write about our lives in the way that others might imagine us talking to them. However, the traditional writer writes about everything, in the most beautiful way (not straight forward tho). Write such as A. Samad Said, write poetry as the way to capture a picture about lives of others, current politics, love, passion, and harmony.

The poetic way of describing peace and harmony among people should be preserve, and one of the way is through songs lyrics. I love poetry and I am sure that there are still others out there have the same interest as I am, only that the main issue is whether we understand the content or not, it is up to the person itself to judge it. It is not a big mistake to write here in the blog. Maybe what they are trying to say is, we as a Malaysian should preserve our Malay Literature (oooww ok, look how's talking!!) hahahha... I know that most of my entry is in English, but next time when I write in Bahasa, I will make sure that I'll be using the correct grammar and sentences!