What am I to do with myself.

My husband constantly asking me about what do I want to be, and my silence will always be the answer.

I once, have made up my mind that I wanted to enter the hectic corporate world and after gathering a handful of experience I would love to become a lecturer. 

I am still holding onto that ambition. 

However, with my current employment status, my ambition seems to be further away from my reach. 

As at today, I have undergo 2 face to face interviews, 2 online assessments and 1 face to face assessment.

My latest assessment with a logistic company seems very promising and I am putting up a high expectation to be short listed for an interview session. 

I'm praying that Allah will granted my prayer and hopefully I will be employed by October.

Source

Finding yourself a job is a challenge nowadays. Maybe because I've been staying home for too long, or maybe I'm not good enough. If only it is as easy as what Dr. Seuss says. 

Want to get Marry?

Are you thinking of getting married? Are you well prepared to share everything with your other half? Are you ready to hold the responsibilities of being a husband or a wife and a child at the same time? Do you have enough money to support more than one person? If your answer is no, you better think again. 

It is not about the engagement ceremony or the kenduri itself. It is about responsibility, trust and compromising with not only your other half but their family as well. You need to remember that you are not only married to your other half but his or her family as well. The kenduri is about letting others know that you are lawfully married, so that when others bump into you else where they wont be shock. 

The most important key words to remember is to plan according to your budget. Getting marry is no longer as simple as what it used to be back than: kompang, simple decorated pelamin (some have none), only 5 to 7 of hantaran and giving only boiled egg rapped with napkin paper to respective guest. But now, getting marry is like planning for a dinner event; with beautiful decoration all over the house, a beautiful and grand pelamin, 10 to 13 of hantaran and some event book a convention hall for their wedding.

I wonder, who started it all? Do want to know why? People are now actually competing with each other in preparing the most grand wedding of their life. But what they really need to realize is, that is not what it is about. It should be about moderation and going according to what you are AFFORD to spend.

You probably wondering why am I posting such entry. Well I'll be getting marry in just 3 more months and I am having the most difficult time in my life. Lots to be done but I don't know where am I at now. Here is what  I already have:

1. Bahan-bahan to decorate my hantaran.
2. Kain to make baju nikah.
3. Dulang hantaran.
4. Alas dulang.
5. Mak andam.

Check list? Doesn't help! or is it just me that does not know how to use a check list! Agrh!!

P/S: lots to do....scared!

The Other Side of Me

Hello dear friends.
Since i love to write so much, I decided to create another 3 blogs.

From My Perspective
The first blog is a bit formal where I talk about current issues that is related to my field of study such as Finance, Economic, Management and others.

Seeker of Great Food
The next blog is dedicated to all food lovers! I love to eat (and yea, that is the reason why I gain so much of weight!). So, I would like to share the place that I go for eat and hangout with my friends. This blog is an effort from my other half and me.

More than Words
This blog, is actually not so much for writing. It is more on how i see the world from my little lens. It's another hobby that I like to do when I have spare time.

and so, there you have it, the other 3 side of me. Enjoy reading it!

Mood and Song

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy: Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield --> fun and motivating, it keeps my smiling all day long ^_^
Sad: New Divide by Linkin Park --> This song have a strong motivation power..I'll feel a lot more better after listning to it..
Bored: Love Song by Sara Bareilles --> This I could listen to all day long!
Hyped: Maria by Kim Ah Jung --> I'll jump around like a mad person!!!!
Mad: In The End by Linkin Park --> I'll scream my heart out to this song...

P/S: I listen to all sort of music...

"Thzee Goals"

08- Short term goals for this month and why





Gambar Hiasan Semata-mata


1. To lose at least 5kg of my weight because according to my BMI calculation, I am slightly overweight and that is so not cool! because I will look short if I gain few more weight! I want to stay fit and healthy (just like in school I have the ideal weight). Not skiny tho but just nice.
2. To come out with a strong topics and references for my thesis. This will definitely be another turn around in my life, and this is my first time doing it in group. It will be a challenge because we each have different views and ideas on what to do, but I pray that Allah help us all the way.

Gambar Hiasan Semata-mata

P/S: I've been doing the wrong exercise since the beggining, no wonder my tights is getting big!

"Malaysia Hari Ini"

I wake up early today before the sun rise up in the sky. I turn on the TV and MHI is on air. Coincidently, the topic of discussion is somehow related to me and all of Malaysian Bloggers. From the show, I learn that Malaysia have the highest number of blogger compare to its neighbour country. Well, that does not surprise me at all, just look at our blogger comunity Nuffnang, there are so many blogger in Malaysia alone that serve nuffnang! (and I am one of them..hahaha)..

Ok, back to the main topic. So, they were discussing on the writtung pattern from back then until now. The conclusion is, we youngster is looking towards something that is fast and on the spot. We write out of pleasure, we write about our lives in the way that others might imagine us talking to them. However, the traditional writer writes about everything, in the most beautiful way (not straight forward tho). Write such as A. Samad Said, write poetry as the way to capture a picture about lives of others, current politics, love, passion, and harmony.

The poetic way of describing peace and harmony among people should be preserve, and one of the way is through songs lyrics. I love poetry and I am sure that there are still others out there have the same interest as I am, only that the main issue is whether we understand the content or not, it is up to the person itself to judge it. It is not a big mistake to write here in the blog. Maybe what they are trying to say is, we as a Malaysian should preserve our Malay Literature (oooww ok, look how's talking!!) hahahha... I know that most of my entry is in English, but next time when I write in Bahasa, I will make sure that I'll be using the correct grammar and sentences!

30 days Quest

It is official...I am now on my semester break and I have plenty of time to care for you my little blog...
I am so sorry for abandoning you for the last few months.
Now that I am back, I'll write to you every single day.
I challenged myself to complete the "30 days Blogging Quest" (that's what I called it).
Credit to Jihani Azhar, I take it from her blog. It looks fun and interesting things to do.
Now that I have the time, so i said to myself "LET'S DO THIS!!"

Ok, so there are 30 questions and I have to write it every single day for 30 days.
so the questions are:

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name.
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends.
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have.
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why?
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has a big impact on you.
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why.
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days.
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad.
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends.
Day 12- How you found out about Blog and why you made one.
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 14- A picture of you and your family.
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play.
Day 16- Another picture of yourself.
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why?
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have.
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them?
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy.
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot.
Day 24- A letter to your parents.
Day 25- What I would find in your bag?
Day 26- What you think about your friends?
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned.
Day 30- Who are you?
The Challenge starts tomorrow..Wish me luck everyone!

Beauty

The other day when I was volunteering at Petrosains, a staff came to me and ask "do you like to write?" and I answer "yes. how do you know that". He said that I like to think and wonder on every single question that they ask me, and that I look like a day dreamer and usually day dreamer have the ability to write.

Than he ask again, "if i give you a topic/subject, can you write it for me?" and I said "sure, what's the topic?" and he said "beauty". He wanted me to write about 70 words during my lunch break time and I did, and this is what I wrote.

'What is beauty? People with have different opinion regarding this matter. Beauty
is synonym to slim and slander body with clear looking skin. But as
for me, beauty is to be judge from within. If a person have good heart and also
kind with others regardless how that person looks like, that person definitely
have a look of a super-model!'

So what do you think???...

p/s: gamba di atas adalah hiasan semata-mata...

Dear Blogger Friends, This is For YOU!

I'm here to wish you all a very Happy New Year 2010. I pray to Allah that this year will be a great year for me to improve myself professionally and personally. I pray that everyone that I know will be Bless by Allah. So here's something for everyone to put on their beautiful page as a token of appreciation from me for reading my humble blog.

"I am Me!"

School days is what I miss the most. WHY? Because you got to go to school, meet your friends, learn all our favourite subjects, get involved in sports and events, be part of a club or society, and other fun stuff. I guess back then I never think much about what the future awaits for me.

The best thing about school is friendship and hardship. School is the place where we learn about friendship and what true friends looks like. It's so hard to have a person that really2 understands you and just accept who you really are, but I am so bless because I have this wonderful and fund people to call my Friend.

School is also the place where we learn about hardship. Struggle to be in line with those who are so genius in studies, to win the first place in any competition for the school and most importantly, just to be accepted by others. All that were accomplished through hardship.

But now, we still face the same situation as what we face in school but its a bit more different and more grown up. Just like the song from Bowling for soup - High School Never Ends.

What do you think?

Qoutes of The Day

It takes twenty years to built a reputation and five minutes to lose it. If you think about that, you will do things differently.

- Warren Buffett, the father of investment

It is true, you could never earn a reputation overnight but you could definitely destroy it within seconds. It could takes years and years of hard works to earn it by putting a 100% effort in what ever you do, just to achieve a dream. Maintaining is the important key, keep away from things that you know is wrong, because once you get caught, you need to pay higher than you could afford. It's a reminder for all of us, including myself.

'ermm...'

Salam everyone. sorry for not updating my blog lately, i need to focus on my thesis. since i only have 2 more days to make some adjustment on my thesis before i submit it for good!

so let me share with you what i've been doing lately. i completed my industrial training last 2 weeks and it was a life time experience. thank you so much for the farewell party. i learn a lot during my practical period - office politic, work, people's behaviour, customer services, phone attiques, business proposals, and many more. one thing that i regreat was i could not fully apply what i've learn at campus during the whole practical period. on the business and administration part Yes i did, but on the finance part maybe 1% out of 100%..huhuhuu

enough about the practical thing, more on to family now. happy news, i have a new cousin! hehhee..friends meet Khalif Amzar, cousin no 24 (he's from my father's side).. cute ha?! hehhehe

okay next, friends:

• aisya & danial: congratulation! you'll be parents in nine months..huhuhu
• leny, aqila, ewang, dila, jay, sofia, kak yani, amira, syahiran, and shieda: congratulation on your convocation! i wish you all the best in what ever you are planning for you future!
• to my friends that will be getting married soon: congratulation! start off with white canvas and color it with new colorful experience..
• my classmate: those who had been offered a job at your practical place, Congratulation! jgn ponteng2 keje mcm ponteng class dulu ok..hehehe ^__^

I'M HAPPY FOR ALL OF YOU!

on sunday, 18th october, one of my friend's mother pass away, she just recover from her health problem but Allah loves her more. i hope that he is strong for his small siblings..

as for me, i'm doing great. need to make a little bit more adjustment on my thesis and i'm done with study. i had started to search for potential job. i know with the current market condition, its hard for me and my friends to seek for jobs. i will grab whatever opportunity that lies in front of me and hope that i'll reach my target soon..

"Thesis part2"

i checked my email few minutes ago and guess what, my advisor reply to me. and i am so happy to know that she likes the draft proposal that i send to her. Alhamdulillah, syukur. Now, i just need to seek for the sources, start typing the introduction section (for a start) and hope that i'll conduct a research that i could admit that is MINE!

"Thesis"

Another day pass by and just few days more and I'll be off for industrial training. what do i feel at this moment?? mmm...nothing much. the excitement is not into me yet. so all i do is wait and wait and wait and wait and wait until zzzZZzzZZzZZZzz...

since there's nothing to do much at home, I've started to do some journal digging and reading on the topic that I'll be doing research on. it's on Islamic Finance. what is Islamic finance? it is the system that is similar to the conventional finance system, but the system used MUST according to the Islamic Law (Shariah).

why do i choose to do research on this topic?? it all started during my fourth semester in UiTM, where the university acquire us to take Islamic Finance subject. since that time, I've decided to be part of this industry because there are so many new things that needed to be discovered and i want to be part of the team that discovers and developed the industry.
apart from that, as a Muslim i feel like it is my duty to be part of the industry because it is all about the Islamic Principles where risk, gambling and the uncertainty is forbidden. so the income that is generated or gain through the Islamic investment is free from the prohibited elements and it can be used without any doubt of whether it is from the HALAL source or not.

seems like I'm too ambitious ha? but it's my goal and I'm sticking to it.

i just submitted my draft proposal to my dearest thesis advisor, all i have to do now is wait and sees what happens.

'Earth Hour"

PEOPLE!! the day has finally come for us to do our part to our planet earth. Today is the day. Lets switch off all of our light for just an hour from 8.30pm until 9.30pm.
This is to support the earth hour. Lets show the world that we care, Malaysian care! and it is not too late for you to show your support by signing up at http://www.earthour.org
come on people be part of it, save our planet, save it for the next generation, save it for the future!

18-02-2009 "OSK Investment Bank"

hello everyone. yesterday was a fun today for me. people from the OSK investment bank had come to my campus and give talk on the 'Malaysian Market Outlook' and 'Why invest in stock'. BEST sgt!! this is the only seminar that I've attended that really give me a clear cut view on the financial and economic market. let me share with you what i get out of the seminar..


from the newspaper,TV news and the Internet, there are so many stories on the current economic condition. 2009 is likely to be another difficult year as the degree of uncertainty over the global economy and corporate earnings is far higher than the last recession. all investor to be are advised to remain cautious because this is not the time to sell your assets..


Mr Ricky Tan, a senior manager in OSK Investment Bank, said that at this point, it is the best time for the investor to buy. WHY? because at this point, the market price is currently low and all investor with extra cash in hand is affordable to buy the instruments. Malaysia recently had feel the impact of this economic downturn, but the government is well prepared. with extra cash kept in reserve, the stimulus plan bailout by the government and the spending trend by the consumer had help to stabilize the market.


You might not believe me, so am i at first. facts after facts and graph after graph with plenty of explanation given, i manage to understand the relevant behind the statement. Mr Ricky also came out with a strategy that is to invest in the Malaysian Dividen Fund and equity market. both of this market will gives investor a good return.

"Annoying sgt2!!"

i just don't understand why people judge a book by it's cover, why can't they just read through everything before they make a review on it!and what makes me feel really ANNOYED is when that particular review does not even related to the content of the book!!!i just cant understand..it is so typical of people to hate a person that others hate! come on people, GROW UP!

why must everything be related to them..why don't they just do their own things..i never disturb people..i never meant to hurt everybody..i never meant to make people HATES me..i'm just a normal human being, please take that into account when you JUDGE me..because i'm just like other human, i have FEELINGS TOO!!

i'm so damn PISs OFF!!!

"Budu"

This post was taken from 'My Family Blog'. Enjoy!

Budu merupakan makanan traditional Kelantan dan Terengganu yang diperbuat daripada ikan bilis atau udang bari yang dijeruk sehingga hancur.

Budu atau sos bilis yang berasal dari negeri sebelah pantai timur Malaysia ini mendapat perhatian dan menjadi kajian para ahli pemakanan berkhasiat Jepun, Amerika Syarikat, Australia, New Zealand dan Jerman. Penemuan baru-baru ini membuktikan kandungan budu memiliki gluthaione sebagai bahan antioksidan, mengeluarkan sisa toxic dan meningkatkan daya tahan tubuh (immune) yang dapat memerangi pelbagai penyakit merbahaya dan menghalang kanser. Kenyataan ini bagaikan satu kejutan bagi golongan yang selama ini memperlekehkan kewujudan budu yang dianggap makan "kuno".

Budu didapati berpotensi untuk melawan radikal bebas dan dipercayai mampu menghalang proses penuaan dan mencegah terjadinya penyakit degeneratif seperti aterosklerosis, koroner jantung, penyakit kencing manis, kanser dan selainnya pada peringkat lebih awal. Kajian mendalam juga mendapati budu turut mengandungi zat antibakteria penyebab [[diarrhoea cirit (diarrhoea)] , penurunan kolestrol darah, pencegah penyakit jantung dan hipertensi.

Budu memiliki zat gizi yang lebih mudah dicerna, diserap dan dimanfaatkan oleh tubuh berbanding jenis protein yang lain. Khasiat budu yang diproses dari ikan bilis yang diperam terbukti mampu mengatasi masalah kanak-kanak yang menderita penyakit diarrhoea kronik akibat kurang zat pada tubuh. Dengan pengambilan budu sebagai makanan sampingan, ia mampu menggalakkan pertumbuhan berat badan bagi golongan yang menderita penyakit diarrhoea kronik ini serta menyembuhkannya dalam waktu singkat.

Ia juga dapat mempertingkatkan IQ kepada sesiapa yang memakannya. kerana ia merangsangkan sel-sel otak dan akan memperkukuhkan ikatan di antara neuron-neuron serta menguatkan neuron-neuron yang lemah. Pemakanan budu turut bertindak membantutkan pertumbuhan bakteria raffinosa dan stokiosa, penyebab utama gejala flatulensi dan masalah kembung perut bagi kanak-kanak dan orang dewasa. 2 kelompok vitamin yang terdapat pada budu iaitu, vitamin larut air (vitamin B kompleks) dan vitamin larut lemak (vitamin A, D, E dan K).

Budu merupakan sumber vitamin B yang paling banyak menyumbang kepada pecahan lain seperti vitamin B1 (thiamin), vitamin B2 (riboflavin) , asid pantotenat, asid niasin, vitamin B6 dan vitamin B12 (sianokobalamin) . Secara saintifik, budu merupakan penyumbang utama vitamin B12 yang dihasilkan oleh bakteria klebsiella pneumoniae dan Citrobacter frundiin - yang mana vitamin B12 ini tidak dimiliki dari mana-mana sumber makanan laut, ikan-ikan dan daging-daging lain. vitamin B12 ini perlu untuk pembentukan sel darah merah, di mana kekurangan vitaman ini mengakibatkan terjadinya penyakit anemia perisiosa (pucat), sakit perut dan berat badan menurun.

Kadar vitamin B12 dalam budu adalah di antara 1.5 sehingga 6.3 mikrogram per 100 gram bagi setiap satu hidangan atau 2 sudu besar. Jumlah ini jauh lebih cukup untuk keperluan badan manusia dalam sehari. Dengan adanya vitamin B12 para pengamal diet (jaga badan) tidak perlu lagi merasa khuatir akan kekurangan vitamin B12 di dalam badan.

Selain pembekal kepada protein yang tinggi, ia turut mengandungi mineral makro dan mikro dalam jumlah yang cukup. Jumlah mineral zat besi, kalsium dan magnesium adalah sebanyak 9, 39, 2, 87 dan 8.05 mg bagi setiap 100 gram budu. Budu juga mengandungi zat antioksidan dalam bentuk isoflavon.

Seperti halnya vitamin C, vitamin E dan karotenoid, isoflavon juga merupakan antioksidan yang sangat diperlukan oleh tubuh untuk menghentikan reaksi pembentukan radikal bebas. Radikal bebas merupakan atom atau molekul yang mempunyai satu atau lebih elektron yang tidak berpasangan, sehingga menjadi sangat aktif hingga menyebabkan ketumbuhan tumor, kanser, penuaan dan kematian sel. Radikal bebas didapati berpunca dari makan seharian yang dimakan dan juga dari reaksi yang terjadi di dalam tubuh. Adanya antioksidan di dalam budu akan mencegah pembentukan radikal bebas tersebut.

Kebiasaannya di dalam apa jua jenis ikan terdapat 3 jenis isoflavon unsur antioksidan iaitu daidzein, glisitein dan genistien. Pada budu, di samping 2 jenis unsur ini, terdapat juga antioksidan faktor 11 (6, 7, 4 trihidroksi isoflavon) yang mempunyai sifat antioksidan paling kuat dibandingkan isoflavon dalam ikan-ikan lain.

Penelitian yang dilakukan di Universiti North Carolina, Amerika Syarikat menemukan bahawa unsur genestein dan phytoestrogen yang terdapat pada budu terbukti dapat mencegah penyakit kanser, proses penuaan dan barah payu dara.

Penyakit jantung koroner (PJK) merupakan salah satu bentuk kelainan pembuluh darah koroner akibat penumpuan lemak di dalam dinding pembuluh darah iaitu satu keadaan yang disebut aterosklerosis. Ini mungkin disebabkan oleh faktor usia, pemakanan, jantina dan keturunan. Manakala faktor dimodifikasi adalah peningkatan kadar lipida darah (hiperkolestrolemia ), hipertensi, obesiti, stress dan kurang aktiviti lasak. Pemakanan budu yang mempunyai sifat hipokolesterolemik (menurunkan lemak darah) seperti kandungan protein, serta makanan, niasin, vitamin E, karotenoid dan kalsium. Satu ujikaji rambang yang dijalankan, mendapati pengambilan budu sebanyak 150 gm sehari selama 2 minggu dapat menurunkan kadar kolestrol ke tahap luar dari jangkaan.

Selain dari sumber protein yang berkualiti tinggi, budu turut dikenali sebagai sumber serat (dietary fiber) yang baik. Kandungan serat di dalam budu mampu mencapai di antara 8 hingga 10% bagi setiap 100 gm. Ia menyumbangkan kepada 30% dari umlah serat yang dianjurkan oleh National Cancer Research.

Berbanding serat di dalam ikan-ikan atau sumber protein lain, serat pada budu lebih mudah untuk dicernakan. Dari apa yang dinyatakan ini jelas sekali bahawa khasiat serta kebaikan sepiring budu yang dimakan bersama hidangan nasi pagi, tengahari dan malam melampau jangkauan yang anda fikirkan. Budu seumpama cecair pelbagai vitamin yang memenuhi segala keperluan untuk tubuh badan.